Crazy, Beautiful Life

My life is SO much fun right now!  It is crazy busy for me with nearing the end of the school year at Creekside (18 days left!) and wrapping up assignments in preparation for graduation with my Masters from GCSU, that I barely have time to cook dinner most nights.  In fact, Chris has asked me several times when I'm going to start cooking again... oops! 

 

I also stay SUPER busy playing MOMMY to my favorite almost two-year old.  When did that happen? You were JUST two weeks old!!  I know that this time is going to fly by faster than my heart can beat, and so I GLADLY get on the floor to crawl around with you when you ask me to no matter how bad my kneeds hurt on the hardwood floor or spin around and dance to the "Spin Around" song by The Fresh Beat Band that comes on Nick Jr. tv even after a long day of allergy shots plus a shot with my epi pen.  Because I know that before I know it, you'll be watching shows that Nick Jr. wouldn't dare approve and wanting to dance to songs with motions a lot worse than just spinning around... yikes!

 

Kiki is moving out of her dorm this weekend (again, another heart tug..... ugh! She was JUST two!!) and so Lucy and I went to hang out in her dorm room for a little bit this morning.  On our way back out to the car to come back home, there was a Dad moving his daughter out, too.  He commented on how adorable Lucy was and I just had to quickly dart to the car because I could feel the tears building up from my toes and choking in my throat as I thought "that's going to be Lucy before I know it..."

 

I am so excited to be done with my masters not just because it will be the first time that I've been DONE with school since I started Pre-K 22 years ago, but because it will give me more time with my family.  I can't wait to see what life brings us and especially to see God's plan for Lucy unfold.  She is so precious and I know that He is going to do GREAT things with her life.  But, I want to be able to enjoy every second of it.  So I'm soaking up the snuggles, the "lubb oo's", the "ee you lay-tur!'s" and the sloppy wet, grab the back of my head, smack dab on the lip kisses, and tucking them far deep into my mommy heart where I can pull them back in 14 years when she drives away by herself for the first time, in 16 years when I drop her off at college and part ways with her for a significant amount of time for the first time, or in 20 years when she marries the love of her life. 

 

I'm a sappy ball of tears now.  But I wouldn't have it any other way!

I don't want to forget...

.... and yet I will.  Because I don't blog often enough, or have the best memory in the world.  But I try to capture little moments in my heart that I can't get on camera or blog quickly enough about.  Like the time I dropped you off at daycare in Ms. Wendy's room and just as I was about to exit out of the building, I heard your sweet little voice say "Mommy!" and I turned around and you were peeking your head out of your classroom door, darted out and ran down the hall to give me a hug and said "Bye Bye, Mommy!" then turned to run back in your classroom like a big girl.  Melted. My. Heart!!

I don't want to forget how at 20 months, you:::

• used to say that a duck says "duck duck" (you now say "cack, cack")
• say that a dog makes a panting noise (not a barking sound)
• laugh and say "Achoo" after anyone sneezes
• love to play the "hug game" and run back and forth from person to person (usually your Daddy & I) saying "hug" and giving the BIGGEST and BEST hugs ever!!
• love your lovie and blanket so very much
• love your lovie and blanket so much, you even found their heartbeat -- made me cry because that's how real they are to you :)
• tell me "bye bye" as I lay you down to sleep
• mimick everything your Daddy & I do from putting on deodorant to dancing
• jump out of the bathtub and curl into my arms as I wrap a towel around you and you say "It cold!"
• call yourself "Cee-Lee"
• love to watch "Clue's Clues" (Blue's Clues), "Gabby" (Yo Gabba Gabba), or "Mi-Mouse" (Mickey Mouse Clubhouse) on the "T.B." (T.V.)
• talk in your sleep
• ask "What's that?" All.Day.Long.
• stop and drop everything you're doing as soon as the "Spin Around" music video by the Fresh Beat Band comes on TV, and dance the whole routine with your Daddy & I.
• you're scared of the automatic bubble wand -- so innocent and sweet!
• you kiss my lips and cover me up with your lovie when I say I'm cold.
• are so polite and tell people "tan-tu" (thank you) unprompted when they compliment you
• know your shapes (circle "seerkle", square "kares", triangle "trangle", heart "haht", star "stah")
• are starting to count (one, two, one), can recognize the numbers 1 & 2, and show them on your fingers
• can recognize and name the letters: A, B, C, D, E, H, I, K, L, M, O, R, S, T, U, X, Z
• know the colors blue, purple, white, black, red, green, pink, yellow "lellow", and orange (but sometimes get green and pink confused)
• how when you were scared of the thunderstorm the other night, I brought you into bed with me (Daddy was sleeping upstairs because he was sick) and you just laid in bed and talked forever.  When I got up to take you back to bed, I asked you if you wanted to go back to your bed or stay with Mommy and you said "Cee-Lee's pillow.  Mommy's bed."  So we went and got your pillow and you slept the rest of the night in my bed. :)

I don't want to forget... and yet I will, because this isn't even all of what I want to remember to write down.

I love you so much sweet, darling angel!  I wish I could remember it all for you... and for me :)  You are my heart!